The Energy Within

The Energy Within

Energy exists in various forms in nature and so does it inside all of us. Happiness, anxiety, excitement, laziness, thrill, worry, fear, relief; these are just a few examples of the different forms of energy within us. They can be classified broadly into the conventional groups of positive energy and negative energy.

We all know how important it is to remain positive in life and hence it is advisable to hold onto the positive energy or to build positive energy inside us. Happiness, excitement, contentment, thrill etc are all positive energies. They inculcate in us this reservoir of confidence about ourselves and our life. They make us humble, understanding and mature. They enable us to make other people happy by helping them, listening to them or sharing a smile with them. Also, being a positive person enables us to be a successful one as well. One can go on and on about the goodness and wonderful effects of positive energy. We have millions of books, articles, talk shows etc to state them. But what about the negative energy within us?  Yes, we do have endless books and talk shows stating their demerits and how important it is to get rid of them and how to do so and all that. But it is always easier said than done, right?

So what do we do about this negativity inside us? Allow me to help you. I know how it feels to have these feelings inside you; I have had them to and still do. It’s in our nature. I also know how frustrating it gets when you know that you want to get rid of them, you may even know the way out but somehow they are still there; like a frenzy. We may come across some good book, hear a nice talk show or maybe share our feelings with someone we are comfortable with and for a while we feel good again. For some of us this does the trick. But for most of us the negativity comes back soon. We feel irritated and angry at ourselves, our life and everything around us. We don’t feel like doing anything; it is as though we have no energy within. And it is a terrible state to be in.

Energy as we know has immense power; power that has great possibilities. All one needs to do is to put this energy to right use. The thing about positive energy is that it makes us feel good about everything around us, its keeps our mind calm and hence we are able to make great stories out of it. This however isn't the case with negative energy. It usually ends up clouding our mind with many layers of unwanted thoughts and results in our self-confidence taking a plunge downwards. But like I said energy put in the right direction gives rise to great opportunities and possibilities; so will this negative energy inside you. Anger, vengeance, frustration, failure, betrayal; all these feelings have given this world the history it takes pride in. This happened only because the people who felt them put those forms of negative energy in the right direction. Believe me if you figure this out for yourself, you will begin to feel so much better. Everything around you will seem nicer and life will become merrier. Make a list of all the things that you love doing or have always wanted to do and whenever you begin to feel that negative energy burning inside you, start doing one of the things on your list. Engage that energy inside you to do things that make you feel good. I have done this for myself and have felt the change. Try doing this and I am sure you will feel the change too.

You all must remember the rule about energy: energy can never be created or destroyed; it only changes its form of existence. This is exactly what you will see happening to yourself. Your restlessness will soon turn into calmness and frustration into inner peace. Things that earlier seemed impossible, will now finally begin to happen for you. The ripples of negativity that tore you apart will now change into winds of calmness that will soothe you. Just be a little more patient and hold on to your faith a little while longer, you will soon see the magic of energy within.

Fear!

Fear!

 We all have things we are afraid of facing or doing. Fears are many in number. We have small fears, big fears and some of us have crazy fears! But I guess when you are experiencing it, they all are the same. The same feeling of blood rushing through your veins, your heart beat getting quicker by the second and in the midst of all this a little hope in our heart that tells us everything is going to be fine.

So well I have always been a brave girl; guess that comes to you naturally when you are an army officer’s daughter. Believe me I wasn't afraid even the day my father was getting ready for a war! But soon I realized that I wasn't as brave as I thought I was. As I grew up there were these two things that I have always felt great fear from- earthquakes and plane crashes. The answer to the question why these two so much is something I am yet to figure out. Earthquakes probably because I have experienced a few; the major one’s that struck my country. However, it was not my death that disturbed me as a little girl aged 10 when I was reading articles about the Gujarat earthquake (2001) or later on about the Kashmir earthquake in 2008. What hit me the hardest was the thought that in those few seconds of disaster that so many of us experienced I survived and so many people died. And this very thought would not allow me to sleep for months at a stretch. I have always wondered why that happens, how God makes those choices; I would cry when alone thinking about it. When I asked my mother she told me that this how nature works and that we hold no power when it comes to nature; certainly not as much as we think we do.

The fear I developed for plane crashes happens to be more severe. As a kid I used to watch these air crash investigation shows on television. I was always very eager to watch them for I believed that if ever I got stuck in a situation like that I would be better prepared; well you see my bravery instinct as a kid. I again happened to watch them recently. This time however watching them made me develop a fear of flights. Imagine for a girl who loves travelling and who wants to travel the world, flights had now become a fear! Again it wasn't the death; it was the torture that one must have to go through for the last few seconds in the flight that disturbed me.

So a month ago I happened to have faced my fear; fear of flights. To add to it I was travelling all alone. I was scared as hell. Never before in my life had I experienced fear the way I did that day on my two flights. My first flight was a short one, for just about an hour but the entire time on flight I couldn't relax for even a single second. I was praying to God the whole time and my heart beat was like on a roll. So after my first flight landed, I felt a little relieved for I was back on mother earth. But as the time for my next flight was closing in, I kept getting more and more restless. I almost had tears in my eyes when I was boarding it. A part of me was like how am I going to survive this flight when in my last flight I was crazy scared and this one had a duration of two and a half hours! Another part of me was however laughing at my crazy behavior  It kept telling me how I was being stupid about it; millions of people travel this way and that it is going to be safe. So I managed to calm down myself a little on my next flight. But the relief I felt when my plane landed was beyond measure.

So that night feeling very safe and happy at home I thought about it. I wondered why I was so scared that day and of what. Though I said to myself that there is nothing to worry about for now the fear is gone; but I was obviously lying to myself. So I finally decided to write about it. Now that I have written about it and poured out my heart I feel so much lighter. Though I don’t know if it is the happiness of writing it all out or that of my fear fading away. But one thing that I know for sure is that fear is nothing more than a wall we create around ourselves that blindfolds us. It is like a blockage in our head. And the faster we get rid of it the better. Fears only prevent us from enjoying our life to the fullest. Don’t they? So well, as I end this article I hope so does the blockage in my head.

Cheers to hope!