Wednesday, March 25, 2020

The Grey Where Love Is

All my life I’ve lived in black and white
Or at least I thought so
My grandma told me stories of right and wrong.
So many wars fought.
So many lives lost.
So many hearts broken.

Most people like the rain and so did I
But only until recently when I finally understood what it meant to fly; free and uninhibited
So, for me it’s neither the rain and nor when those dark dense clouds begin to appear
It’s the moment in between
When the first light drizzle falls on the ground and the earth finally breathes.
Oh that fragrance! Warm and comforting

Just like you.

They say people can find love anywhere
Or that magical things happen when you least expect them
I guess I never really believed that
Because I’ve always been the practical kind

You see I’ve been hurt too many times
I try to hide the scars but then it gets unbearable and I decide to let go
Only realizing later that I’m fragile
Much like that dainty little bird flying in the sky

But then us happened
I’m not sure if I felt it the first time we met
Who knew we’d be this special
To me being with you felt just like that moment
Only this time I breathed.

I liked all our conversations
When our eyes met and said the unspoken
Those long nights that seemed too short because I never wanted us to stop talking
To when our heartbeats met when our bodies intertwined
And through all the silences when you held my hand

You and I are different
We were never just simply black and white
There was never any wrong or right
And there was no heart left broken

No, this wasn’t simple
Everything about us was convoluted
And yet it seemed so easy; so real.
After all, you were that fragrance; warm and comforting
And we are the grey where love is.



- Dedicated to and inspired by my soul-sister and chosen family. I wish for you to keep flying high; 
free and uninhibited.

Monday, March 9, 2020

Everyday Grateful. Everyday Phenomenal.

All in all life is good.
Let’s start on that note.
Positive vibes only!

Nothing is constant.
Sans the daily mundane chores?
Dear Routine, you confuse me
You are edgy, distressing and oddly comforting; atrociously charming

Each morning unlike the other and yet the same.
Sometimes the sun is friendly, sometimes the clouds are harsh.
But the path I take to work is the same.
Every night the bed feels familiar only the creases on sheet much different.

Even in this unsymmetrical world
We are all looking for symmetries
Patterns make us feel comfortable
Yet we all want to break the glass ceiling

Every time that I make another list
I frown a little thinking how many more
They say you only live once
Life is too short; make the most of it
Stop, relax and take a deep breath
But in that moment I do it again.
I make a list.

Things I want to do
Places I want to visit
People I want to meet
The unsaid sorry’s
All the times I wish I had said I love you
The many hugs that I was reluctant about
Those tears I held back

Times I wish I had smiled more
The moments I wish I had enjoyed more
When I should have spoken with my heart and told exactly how I felt
Situations when I put too much pressure on myself
All those tasks done well, when I should have appreciated myself
The number of times I decided to not look back and move ahead
Times I failed and succeeded and when I was mediocre

The items on this action list are infinite
Eventually it becomes monotonous
We feel tired
And life simply goes on

But hey listen
Life isn’t meant to be perfect
Who hasn’t made mistakes?
We’ve all made bad choices
But also remember
The times you did well
All the right choices you made
Moments that felt like a struggle but you fought hard and well
Times you took a stand and supported your friend
When you made your loved ones proud

We are all a beautiful mess
Believe in yourself
Be proud of who you are

Every once in a while take a break
Just go out for a walk; alone or with your loved ones
And while on that stroll take mental pictures
Enjoy the surroundings; smile and feel at peace
Hold a hand, listen to the birds sing
Just breathe

Most importantly, remember to be grateful
Because everyday is phenomenal.



-Dedicated to impromptu walks, cherry blossom season, friends and family.