My Wildflower Moment

In the time I’ve had thus far and in the time yet to come, you have always been a moment. Always.

It’s the kind of moment that sticks with you forever; and now wherever I go I carry you with me. 

It’s in my pocket, in my eyes, in the vase placed on my table; it’s in the air I breathe.It’s in my heart. Embedded deep within- like a part of my existence. 

I remember the first time. I guess I always will, it was something special. At least for me. 

You caught me unaware and just like that I embraced you. This was new. 

A moment was created. 

I didn’t know what it meant. I still don’t.

I an amateur artist and you a piece of art; unraveling, demystifying- everyday something new.

In the continuum of life- a new dimension; in my head a new universe. 

I like our conversations. I like our silence. Most importantly I like that this “our” is only mine. 

This moment-I hold it close. An invaluable treasure that life gave me. It’s pure, it’s magical- in so many ways it completes me and yet it never stops me- I grow with it. 

I’ve always been a solo traveler. Guess we all ultimately are. But now with this moment, there is a sense of comfort. I am alone and yet I no longer am alone.

Not everything has to be spoken about. Sometimes it’s the words unsaid that make the bond even stronger. 

There is love, there is companionship, there is friendship and then there is beyond. An existence and a wish - sometimes that’s all you want. 

I’m glad to have found this moment; a stroke of serendipity. In its warmth my heart bounces. In it’s tenderness I feel emancipated. 

I am the wildflower in the forest and you are the wind that caresses me. 

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Today marks a year since I lost my Eva and her loss has changed my perspective towards a lot things. I’ve been blessed to have had many beautiful experiences in the last one year and I believe she is the reason why I was able to have it all.

Eva taught me the true meaning of forever. She taught me to take things one at a time, to live in the moment and to appreciate everything for what it is. Not everything is meant to happen in the way we want it and to yet be able to understand its value and take it in our stride- she helped me understand that. I guess now I can say that a lot of times how things turn out make life even more special. Therefore, I think it’s befitting to dedicate this piece to Eva- the reason why I could experience something so beautiful. 

Eva it’s been a year since I lost you but not a day has gone by when I haven’t thought about you.

Also, to all the people, who’ve been an important part of my life since forever and to a few important additions that happened in the past one year-  
a heartfelt thank you!