The Energy Within

The Energy Within

Energy exists in various forms in nature and so does it inside all of us. Happiness, anxiety, excitement, laziness, thrill, worry, fear, relief; these are just a few examples of the different forms of energy within us. They can be classified broadly into the conventional groups of positive energy and negative energy.

We all know how important it is to remain positive in life and hence it is advisable to hold onto the positive energy or to build positive energy inside us. Happiness, excitement, contentment, thrill etc are all positive energies. They inculcate in us this reservoir of confidence about ourselves and our life. They make us humble, understanding and mature. They enable us to make other people happy by helping them, listening to them or sharing a smile with them. Also, being a positive person enables us to be a successful one as well. One can go on and on about the goodness and wonderful effects of positive energy. We have millions of books, articles, talk shows etc to state them. But what about the negative energy within us?  Yes, we do have endless books and talk shows stating their demerits and how important it is to get rid of them and how to do so and all that. But it is always easier said than done, right?

So what do we do about this negativity inside us? Allow me to help you. I know how it feels to have these feelings inside you; I have had them to and still do. It’s in our nature. I also know how frustrating it gets when you know that you want to get rid of them, you may even know the way out but somehow they are still there; like a frenzy. We may come across some good book, hear a nice talk show or maybe share our feelings with someone we are comfortable with and for a while we feel good again. For some of us this does the trick. But for most of us the negativity comes back soon. We feel irritated and angry at ourselves, our life and everything around us. We don’t feel like doing anything; it is as though we have no energy within. And it is a terrible state to be in.

Energy as we know has immense power; power that has great possibilities. All one needs to do is to put this energy to right use. The thing about positive energy is that it makes us feel good about everything around us, its keeps our mind calm and hence we are able to make great stories out of it. This however isn't the case with negative energy. It usually ends up clouding our mind with many layers of unwanted thoughts and results in our self-confidence taking a plunge downwards. But like I said energy put in the right direction gives rise to great opportunities and possibilities; so will this negative energy inside you. Anger, vengeance, frustration, failure, betrayal; all these feelings have given this world the history it takes pride in. This happened only because the people who felt them put those forms of negative energy in the right direction. Believe me if you figure this out for yourself, you will begin to feel so much better. Everything around you will seem nicer and life will become merrier. Make a list of all the things that you love doing or have always wanted to do and whenever you begin to feel that negative energy burning inside you, start doing one of the things on your list. Engage that energy inside you to do things that make you feel good. I have done this for myself and have felt the change. Try doing this and I am sure you will feel the change too.

You all must remember the rule about energy: energy can never be created or destroyed; it only changes its form of existence. This is exactly what you will see happening to yourself. Your restlessness will soon turn into calmness and frustration into inner peace. Things that earlier seemed impossible, will now finally begin to happen for you. The ripples of negativity that tore you apart will now change into winds of calmness that will soothe you. Just be a little more patient and hold on to your faith a little while longer, you will soon see the magic of energy within.

Fear!

Fear!

 We all have things we are afraid of facing or doing. Fears are many in number. We have small fears, big fears and some of us have crazy fears! But I guess when you are experiencing it, they all are the same. The same feeling of blood rushing through your veins, your heart beat getting quicker by the second and in the midst of all this a little hope in our heart that tells us everything is going to be fine.

So well I have always been a brave girl; guess that comes to you naturally when you are an army officer’s daughter. Believe me I wasn't afraid even the day my father was getting ready for a war! But soon I realized that I wasn't as brave as I thought I was. As I grew up there were these two things that I have always felt great fear from- earthquakes and plane crashes. The answer to the question why these two so much is something I am yet to figure out. Earthquakes probably because I have experienced a few; the major one’s that struck my country. However, it was not my death that disturbed me as a little girl aged 10 when I was reading articles about the Gujarat earthquake (2001) or later on about the Kashmir earthquake in 2008. What hit me the hardest was the thought that in those few seconds of disaster that so many of us experienced I survived and so many people died. And this very thought would not allow me to sleep for months at a stretch. I have always wondered why that happens, how God makes those choices; I would cry when alone thinking about it. When I asked my mother she told me that this how nature works and that we hold no power when it comes to nature; certainly not as much as we think we do.

The fear I developed for plane crashes happens to be more severe. As a kid I used to watch these air crash investigation shows on television. I was always very eager to watch them for I believed that if ever I got stuck in a situation like that I would be better prepared; well you see my bravery instinct as a kid. I again happened to watch them recently. This time however watching them made me develop a fear of flights. Imagine for a girl who loves travelling and who wants to travel the world, flights had now become a fear! Again it wasn't the death; it was the torture that one must have to go through for the last few seconds in the flight that disturbed me.

So a month ago I happened to have faced my fear; fear of flights. To add to it I was travelling all alone. I was scared as hell. Never before in my life had I experienced fear the way I did that day on my two flights. My first flight was a short one, for just about an hour but the entire time on flight I couldn't relax for even a single second. I was praying to God the whole time and my heart beat was like on a roll. So after my first flight landed, I felt a little relieved for I was back on mother earth. But as the time for my next flight was closing in, I kept getting more and more restless. I almost had tears in my eyes when I was boarding it. A part of me was like how am I going to survive this flight when in my last flight I was crazy scared and this one had a duration of two and a half hours! Another part of me was however laughing at my crazy behavior  It kept telling me how I was being stupid about it; millions of people travel this way and that it is going to be safe. So I managed to calm down myself a little on my next flight. But the relief I felt when my plane landed was beyond measure.

So that night feeling very safe and happy at home I thought about it. I wondered why I was so scared that day and of what. Though I said to myself that there is nothing to worry about for now the fear is gone; but I was obviously lying to myself. So I finally decided to write about it. Now that I have written about it and poured out my heart I feel so much lighter. Though I don’t know if it is the happiness of writing it all out or that of my fear fading away. But one thing that I know for sure is that fear is nothing more than a wall we create around ourselves that blindfolds us. It is like a blockage in our head. And the faster we get rid of it the better. Fears only prevent us from enjoying our life to the fullest. Don’t they? So well, as I end this article I hope so does the blockage in my head.

Cheers to hope!

Oh Shut the Hell Up!

Oh Shut the Hell Up!

I know that is a rude thing to say. But sometimes that is exactly what you need to tell yourself. More specifically to your brain, to the part of it that fills up your head with all the things that are not so important as to take up that much space in there; in your life.

 Our mind is a beautiful and complex creation of nature; oozing with millions of thoughts, emotions and ideas all the time. It is capable of things that know no boundary and hence is highly valued. World’s greatest minds have given this world what not! I have always felt great admiration for it. I believe our brain is divided into these three parts- strong, neutral and weak. The strong and neutral parts are good. They are clear on what they want, how to precede, how to take in things, tackle issues, prioritise and so on. They know usually what’s best for us and are seldom afraid. They basically help us to be the best we can in every possible situation of our life. They are like our mentors and so whatever they create in our head is mostly for our better.

It is the weak part that bothers us the most. Believe me the good parts will vouch for that. And it happens to be extremely shrewd as well; it takes over our mind very quickly. It is the part that makes us think about all the issues that we know are least important and about people that we know don’t really matter. It makes us think about what others think of us; by others I am referring to the people who have no value in our life, the kind of people that instil our minds with negativity and the kind who will always try to pull us down. It makes us feel gloomy about ourselves and our life by creating a web of negative thoughts. Thoughts that pull us down, make us fearful and make us believe that everything in our life has gone wrong, that life has been unfair to us. This part of our brain makes us weak. And it is this very weakness that leads us into the realm of depression, setbacks, dejection and self-underestimation; sometimes sadly into the wretched world of hatred, betrayal, injustice, war and murder.

This is our very own stress creator. It masters in making us less worthy of what we are by making us waste our time. Do not let this part control you. Learn to shut it up! Learn to put it to a rest and then to slowly train it to become capable of doing worthy thinking. It is surely a very difficult thing to do. This part of our brain is a big fighter. So we take the lesson of being a fighter from it to become a better one. That’ll probably be the best and only worthy lesson it has to offer to you. Think wisely, you are a person capable of so much more, of doing amazing things for yourself, your family and the world. So would you just let go of it all by paying heed to those obnoxious thoughts and there-by becoming your own biggest hindrance to living a life you truly deserve?

Well, not every thought can be a mark of intelligence but neither can every thought be worthy of evaluation. And mostly we all know which thoughts need to be dealt with. So, next time don’t even think twice about saying “shut up” to them.           

Cheers to healthy thinking!   

Mistakes-The Haunting Ghosts?

Mistakes-The haunting Ghosts?

One thing that everyone fears in life is making a mistake. Mistakes are often taken to self-esteem and pride. Sometimes so much that they can lead people into the sad world of depression and fear. I wonder what it is about mistakes that make us so frightful of them. Why are mistakes always taken as something that is bad?

History has stated bad mistakes which have set bad examples and have led people to wrong doings. Yes, nobody would want that to ever happen if it hurt human life in anyway. But I am not talking about mistakes like those; I am referring here to the lesser complex mistakes that we make in our normal routine lives. I am talking about the decisions that we make, which when go haywire we consider them a mistake. Decisions about relationships, family, career and so on; decisions about our life that affect it on a daily basis.

I believe that mistakes are like the opening of new gateways in our lives. They help us to have a better understanding of the different elements of life. Every decision that you have considered a mistake, for a few seconds think about it more deeply. Let us take for example our career. We make the wrong choice. We chose a profession that we are not happy with. So what? Do we then just take it as one big mistake and spend the rest of our life repenting our decision? Certainly not! Let us take other example-relationships. We misbehaved with someone, were unfair to someone who loved us or we took the wrong person for being the love of our life. So in all these circumstances do we just sit back thinking oh we made a mistake, our life is ruined now or that I am a person capable of nothing? NO! Absolutely not! That should probably be one of the last things on our mind if at all they are there.

We have one life to ourselves. It is a blessing bestowed upon us, we cannot just waste it like that. It is okay to take the wrong decision or to make the wrong choices. Be an optimist, if we took a wrong decision we can also find ways to make it better. Always take them as a way of realizing where you fell short in life. And falling short is not a bad thing; it always helps us to improve ourselves. Always improvise on the decisions you made that went the wrong way, never repent them. Mistakes are in a funny way one of the best things that happen to you. They have the power of bringing out the better in you, they are a way of keeping a check on you, a way of realizing the true potential that lies buried in you; however, only if taken the right away. Also had you not taken the wrong decision you wouldn't have come to know of so many other possibilities that exist around you, for you.

 Take your “mistakes” in the right spirit always. Believe me if you do, your life is going to be of the kind that everyone aspires to have. Life is a beautiful thing. Take everything it has to offer to you in a way that you can make the best out of it; even the mistakes. Do not allow them to be ghosts that will haunt you forever.

Deep in My Heart.

Deep in my heart,

there lies a scar clearly marked

the mark a reminder

of a cluster of memories; abattoir,

of things I wished wouldn't be,

but yes they are, they define me.

The scar, a cruel maze

In it I’m abandoned, I’m in a daze,

I’m running fast; faster,

Away from a darkness that just keeps getting darker,

“I’m trapped” but I can’t shout, can’t cry!

Its like a marsh I’m stuck in no matter how hard I try.

I’m hurt, the pain is unbearable,

But it can only be felt; indescribable

Even in the brightness the shadow follows me,

Now it’s only in my eyes the hurt you can see.

Quiescent weather, despair falls upon,

But the fairy of hope lives, for not it is my only dawn,

That’ll come I know; rebirth; I shall again be born,

But till then I walk, with faith my sago on and on…..!

I am sharing with you a poem I had written a year back, during the tough times. And believe me the faith kept me strong and sturdy. It surely did its magic!
And I am sure it will for you as well, whenever the need be.

A Toast to Friendship!

                                                            A Toast to Friendship!

Friendship is one of those relationships that has been valued beyond any known limits, beyond blood, beyond life! It is one of the most beautiful and cherishing experience of life. And we have legends to state that, dating from time as back as humans have been known to exist.

However, one of the most common saying of today is “to find a true friend in today’s world is tough”. Some people even state it as an impossible thing. So when I hear this, I always wonder what they mean by the term “today’s world”. What makes the world of today so sadly unique that a true friend is thought of as once upon a time tale? The answers that follow are- its competitive, people are greedy, nobody has time, it is a fast moving world, nobody really cares or people care only when they need you and so on.

But I am a firm believer of friendship and have always believed that these things are only meant to be said. I have changed ten schools, two colleges and have been to almost every corner of my country, India. I have met people from different cultures, religions etc but never has my faith in friendship been lost. Yes I have had my shares of jealous friends, overly competitive friends and friends with the so called qualities of today’s world. But I have always been blessed to have people around me who cared for me and who I cared for. Even today when I meet my dearest friend from fifth standard, it feels as though we were always there for each other. The same goes for all my other dear friends. These people have taught me to become a better person. They have corrected me when I was wrong, held my hand when I was weak and have looked out for my support when they needed it. Yes we have fought, had our tough times together but somehow that never made us question our friendship.

Greed, jealousy, competition-they have always been a part of human existence, they are all a part of human nature. But all these things have never been able to question the strength of friendship. We all have someone who has always been there for us and that person is our dearest friend. There are times when we have bad experiences, when we mistake some people for being our friends. But even in all this we will have someone who’ll stand by us.

Friendship has never known any religion, caste, color or distance and neither will it ever. It’s a feeling so pure and powerful. It has always taken the world by its awe.

To all my dearest friends and to all of you who believe in friendship...cheers!

Dedicated to my dearest friends-a special toast to: Niki, Ish, Pav, Tuli, Nea, Shash and Dove.

The Start to a New Beginning..

The start to a new beginning...

So I've been meaning to write a blog, rather start my own for the past 2 years and each time I would get stuck at the point where I had to choose a topic. So over the last few days I have been having this very strong urge to write and then suddenly tonight it struck me-my topic!

And how did it strike? I’m sitting with my laptop on, telling my dearest friend how I've been wanting to write but can’t find any inspiration and at the same time reflecting upon whatever I have been feeling about myself and life over the past few days rather the past three years and then in my mind pops up this question, “what is the most difficult part of when you want to start with something?” and the answer I come up with is “the start”. So there came my topic.

We all think of so many things we want to do or aspire to do for ourselves, our family, our friends or it could be for just anyone or anything. But how many of us are actually able to act upon those thoughts of ours? More so especially after a failure, when we fail to get to our goal. All of us have heard the famous quotes- how brave are those who not just win, but have the courage to pull themselves up after a failure or how failure is the essence of success and so on. We hear them all the time and also use them often to encourage our dear ones. But what about us, ourselves? Why does it become so difficult to gather courage to do something, to work for something after a failure?

I had a dream about what I wanted my life to be like in college. I dream't about it all the time, of the colleges I wanted to be in. And when things went haywire, when that dream could not come true I would just spend all my time feeling sad, feeling angry and feeling dejected. Alas the taste of failure ain't good but I slowly pulled up my socks after realizing those feelings won’t help me and failure is not just about me not being able to live my dream but more so about me now wasting my time feeling sad and dejected over something in the past. I knew, for I had the realization that I could still turn things around for me. All that I needed to do was to think positive and work upon it. Sadly till now I have never been able to bring myself up to the point of working on it. It’s like I fear that i might fail again. But does one single non-achievement have so much power, that it can lead to a path of self-destruction or self-underestimation? Why even after knowing that it actually is no failure am I not able to gather up the courage to set my boat a sail? I keep looking for ways to do. I come up with like a billion ideas, but I never work on them! Am I so afraid of facing what lies ahead, thinking that it’ll mostly be failure and so a safer bet is to hold onto this boat rather than letting it sink deeper?

 From within I can still hear a voice, saying I am just being silly for I am wasting my life this way.It is all about that start now and all I need is a little push, like a source of motivation, self-motivation. And the start lies around me, within me..... I just need to have a little more faith in myself, in life. I have this one life and only I can figure out ways for myself, I just need to keep my mind open to all the wonderful things that life has to offer to me and shut my mind to all the things that are proving a hindrance to this start. It is time to get things together and start working hard. Yes, the start is not going to be like a bed of roses, I will have to be very patient and keep working hard. After all how can life be so much fun with it just being all so easy, I guess it’s the struggle that adds so many elements to it without which it wouldn't be meaningful at all!

Well, I am glad I finally wrote this article though it may not be all that refined and polished in terms of its objective but then I feel like I've finally found my new start....!